.Sunday, January 6, 2008 ' 11:38 PM
without knowing any reason at all, #1 dropped my heart on the floor. at first, it wasn't that bad because i stayed at #2's pad all day long. #2 and i did a lot of things: talked, laughed, ate, kissed, cuddled, slept, and any more. because of that awesome experience, i forgot to inform #1 about my false whereabouts. in short, i forgot to text her. (i mean, uhh.. not literally... it's just that #2 was sooo strict whenever i'm with her.) i had a lot of fun, really, so my mind didn't absorb all the things and my heart didn't suffer from super bloodloss during that merry minute. it's like a small, tolerable scratch plus i saw the pretty girl on tv: riza of pbb.
i even slept tight..
but the moment i woke up, i felt that something's wrong... something's missing... that's the point where i understood that my relationship with #1 was over.. i wanted to contact her but my ever foolish pride prevented me from doing so. i said to myself: "who cares? i still have #2 and #3 with me." but my heart (corny) was not saying the same thing.. my will and my intellect are not working in unison. then, i realized that there is something wrong, really wrong, with me...
hours after, i decided that i must get rid of the remaining two girls. "i'm doing evil so i need to pay my toll and it must be a heavy one" i thought. ok... i did it. i had an argument with #2 and we ended up saying goodbye.
i thought that my bad deeds was over...
while i was pondering in my room, someone texted me...
"mahal, im sorry :c"
it was #1.. without any hesitation, i replied..
"sorry?"
"sorry about what happened... bati na tayo :c"
as i have said, im very kindhearted(?). that's why i welcomed her with arms wide open.
hours after, another text almost gave me a heart attack... #2!
"______, mahal na mahal kita :c mahal na mahal :c"
my ever forgiving heart accepted her tagalog terms are really sweeter than english... and now, im back to my dillema.. oh my..
i really want this to end but those two... i can't leave them... in any way, whatever path i choose, someone or all of us will end up bleeding.
